So I was talking to one of my friends a couple of weeks ago, in one of our typical 5 hour phone conversations where we stop talking about moving in with our boyfriends and living in new cities long enough to talk about the things that are actually important, like shopping and Doctor Who.
Oh wait, I think I have that backwards. Just kidding, no I don’t.
She wanted to know about Ryan, since, you know, she was there for my first boyfriend experience, that breakup, and the whole Joshua debacle (before and after, twice). The little she knew from our annual 4/20 reunion was simply NOT good enough.
Honestly, most of my friends know little more than what I’ve written in this blog. Ok that is actually a lie. But few of my friends know a lot. No, that’s actually a lie too. I mean, my entire family has met him, and I’m talking about a ton of my extended family on my mom’s side, too. I basically dragged him everywhere to meet anyone I could.
“Hey this is Ryan, my new boyfriend. How did we meet? Oh, haha, that’s a long story. We’ve been together for three whole months, and we’re probably going to get married.”
Uh, so yeah, there’s that.
Whatever. There’s a lot to it. I’m still figuring it out, and for once, I’m taking my time in that department. My friends know as much as I do, to varying degrees. By the time I finished writing the terrible, epic tale of the J’s, I had already moved across the country and was sharing a bedroom with my boyfriend of four months. Granted, we’d known each other for a couple of years, but come on now. It took me a little while to calm down and get my shit together.
So yeah. I wasn’t quite ready to write about it, but I think it’s about time that I started. If the amount of time it took me to write this short bit is any indication, it’s going to take a while. I want to get it right. Plus there’s that whole book thing that I’m working on.
What it comes down to is that I’m still learning to accept that the guy who is wrong for me in all the ways that I thought were important is right for me in all the ways that actually are.
Like how he’s on the shorter side. I’m taking one for the team on that one, ladies.